lately Ive been feeling really empty , even when i have friends and im talking to them , talking to people makes me feel even more empty inside. ive been very short tempered lately and it makes me mad because im not normally like this. i cant fall asleep till around 4-8am , i cant eat anything without feeling sick. im failing school. i have bad anxiety and my depression is getting worse. i feel sad all the time , my self esteem has gone completely down the drain. i don't feel like me anymore , i just feel really lost and empty , i keep trying to smile and e happy but it doesn't work and when i try to tell people how i feel they just tell me that i need to calm down and that im beautiful and that everything is ok , everything is not ok im not ok nothing is ok with me anymore im in a down word spiral and every time i make it go up i end up getting pulled back down. im getting horrible headaches that never stop. i cant remember anything , im having trouble breathing , my thoughts and mind are being harsh on me to say the least. i just don't know what to do anymore. i wanna go to a psychologist because they may be able to help but i know my mom wont take me to one , she never has , heck is been almost 2 years since ive been to the doctor's. well thats all im ganna say.